I hope you guys are open to this story of mine. It's true and I don't know what exactly is welcomed here but I appreciate things being written here so I figured I'd post something that had an impact on my life for the better:

So, a few months ago, I experienced LSD for the first time. I've been a huge psychedelic fan with an admiration for mushrooms for many years.

Anyways, I've always had a mind for ultimately analyzing my surroundings and never really approaching people but rather listening to them for what they're talking about among themselves. Basically, my bliss comes from analysis. I've enjoyed being a lurker in public or on the internet! I have fairly recently (8 months ago) become a father to the most wonderful child I could had asked for. Malick is his name and he rocks! :-) Anyways...To get back to where I was going (it's hard staying in tune with a chaotic mind)

So, a few months back a friend had said hey Aaron, want to get together and do some acid? Sure enough, I obliged to the offering. He came over and picked me up and we went straight to Best Buy. What the hell? Best Buy? Yes, I had to pick up a tape recorder because I like to document things in these various states of consciousness. Anyways, I purchased it and we headed to St Paul to his apartment. Before arriving, we stopped in Richfield, MN at a gas station (Super America) and he went in to pay for his gas. He came out and handed me the blotter. I was nervous, not knowing what to do with it initially because I didn't feel ready. I realized eventually while sitting next to that gas pump, hey Aaron! What? Snap out of it. So I did, and I dropped those 2 hits like nothing and began to smile at my friend.

He drove from the gas station back to his apartment finally and on the way there we could feel mild effects kicking in. I thought wow, this stuff is weak. 2 1/2 hours into it, I had my ass handed to me. My mind thinks about the answer to life, what is god?, and such questions all of the time. I've been in search of answers all of my life. Well, to some of you this may sound pretty horrible depending on your education with drugs and why LSD was ultimately illegalized here in America and the world, but I finally made it there. I was having the ultimate mega-god complex trip.

The apartment was a loft setup. High ceilings, very spacious design. It wasn't exactly the cleanest place one would want to do this in. Anyways, without getting anymore into detail...

The fractal mandalas of deformation and reformation circulating the room every "universal frequency" which I will use to describe time. Time is merely the vibration of every breadth of space the universe has! I would move my hand, it would disassemble and reassemble itself after making a circle of the room, everything was in motion, the sound, the light, the smell. But it all ran together. It was a perfect balance. Everything that was happening, the universe already knew was happening. It cannot be put into better terms than the topic's title, Universal Harmonious Balance.

Imagine that, beyond the layers of our consciousness lies the doorway to viewing from "god's" eye what happens every vibrating moment. Universal Oscillation if you will. But very chaotic, very sporadic, but maintaining an organized efficiency comparable to nothing else! It was beautiful and made me realize that depression is just a part of the cycle and that I was able to come out of it because it was meant to happen that way. The answer to life is: "What is the answer to life?" I can only tell one who asks to just ignore and stop worrying about what people think, and carry on because things circulate endlessly the way they do because that's just how it is.

Is that boring? I don't know. Anyone with any input on the subject, please submit. I'm very clouded right now. I should begin writing during the day instead of writing right before I fall asleep :-)

With chaos brings unification of all universal frequencies, with unification brings organized, and with organized being chaotic but united brings the Universal Harmonious Balance.

Make sense? (Aaron shutting up now! Insults more than welcome :-P)

Goodnight

Aaron